When Life Gives You... [Pt 1]

Where do I start?

I started blogging back in 2019 to document my life, and I stuck to writing on it as much and as often as I could. For years, I've switched hosts, domains, and personalities but one thing was certain - I would never go for weeks without writing something.

If you've noticed, it's been about 1 year and 7 months since I last wrote on my blog. SO much has happened that I would need a couple of says to even organize an outline. I could go month by month but that would take too much time.

So where do I begin?

I should probably address the statements/hopes I had for myself in my last post:

Before anything else, I need to ask: Is your heart well? Is your soul fulfilled?

As of today, yes. My heart is well taken-cared of (even after the whole breakup). There's someone taking very good care of me and has the sole goal of making me happy and comfortable. My soul, I would say, is semi-filled. After so many years of neglecting my faith and thinking things would just work out in the end, I'm now making moves to go "back into the fold", if you will. Sure, it's not going to be 100% immediately, but I've reconnected with spirit ates who are encouraging me to keep moving forward. 

...my wish for 2024 is that it's a calm, peaceful, prosperous year. A year where you filter out who truly is good for your heart and mental health, the year where you decide what dreams are worth pursuing and which ones just drain you. 

I would say that yes, I was able to filter out what's good for me in more ways than one. Media I consumed, people I regularly hung out with, etc. I wasn't active as much last year and frankly, almost everything drained me. It was a miracle I even went out for groceries or food. I sat comfortably in solitude until that calm was revealed to be an illusion. 

I wonder - do you still overthink? Are you still scared of opening yourself up to people in fear that they would use it against you? Do you still let people have their way with you? Have you learned to defend yourself? Or have you completely shut down?

Honestly, I still overthink. I'm still scared about opening up to people because I don't want to get hurt. People don't have their way with me and I speak up when I feel the need to. Also, I WILL NEVER SHUT DOWN, not anymore.

So here's what I'm going to do. I'll post a couple of photos from each month and summarize the events in the photos. This will be a lot since I'll be starting January 2024.

Buckle up, ladies.